From the summer of 2009 to the time we left for Ecuador, I struggled with my faith in God. I wasn't sure how I lost such a good connection or how to get it back, and honestly I couldn't have cared less. Even preparing for Ecuador was a last minute thing. I knew the trip would be good for me because lately I'd been feeling empty...I missed being full of joy. The first week there, I heard heart breaking testimonies...at least for everyone else. I just kinda sat and said "That's sad." I wasn't affected by anything at all and I couldn't figure out why. Not fair. 
I finally told myself I had to start trying if I wanted the connection back, so I prayed and discovered that the community in Ecuador was breathtaking. How could people with almost nothing still be so loving and be so hungry of God? I felt selfish and started to break down. That was what I was waiting for: God to break me down so I could finally be built up again by him. Going on this trip has really changed my whole perspective about God. I'm still learning how to be like Jesus...not quite there yet, but I'm so thankful I had this opportunity.